I wanted to go back through everything vacation in chronological order. I’ve sat down quite a few times over the last week or so since we’ve been back and I can’t write about anything else until I talk about Cassidy.
I briefly mentioned in my Easter post a couple of months ago, about having to take Cassidy in that Monday morning to have a mass removed from her shoulder. What they removed was about the same size and shape of a dill pickle. For a couple of weeks afterwords she seemed to be feeling so much better; she wanted to play, she was actually up and active. It was great. She even started losing weight; we thought it was because she was being more active then the last few months.
As time went by, we realized it seemed like she was losing too much weight. About a week before we left for Indiana, she started throwing up a couple of times a day. We again chose denial and thought that it was since she was outside more now that the weather is nice, that she was eating grass and it was making her sick. She seemed fine on the road trip, a little slow in and out of the van but she was 11 1/2 years old.
A couple of days after we got there, we knew something wasn’t right. She wasn’t as active, wasn’t eating much, and didn’t really want to go outside at all. About a week in to our trip she started throwing up again and on May 26th, when we got back from she threw up and we just knew it wasn’t right. On Tuesday May 28th, we took Cassidy to a Veterinarian back home. They took some xrays and the thought of looking at them still brings tears to my eyes. Her whole left lung was pretty much non existent because of cancer. It was pushing on her trachea causing the heavy breathing. They said we had maybe a week before she started feeling like she was sufficating and not much time left with her at all. We were leaving for Myrtle Beach that Friday and we knew we couldn’t ask her to suffer any more. We took her home that night and loved on her the best we could. The girls got to say goodbye and so did we. The next day, it was like she knew that we finally knew what to do for her. She couldn’t lay down, it hurt her too much, but she was by our sides all day.
We took her that afternoon for her last ride.
They let us Bring Cody in with us and we got to say our goodbyes to Cassidy. As soon as she was gone, it was hard, but we knew we had made the right decision. She looked comfortable and at peace for the first time in a LONG time.
I remember bringing her home to Brad for the first time, how tiny she was and how much he loved her at that very instant.
I remember the first time we took her swimming and we we picked her up out of the water to leave, she kept on paddling like she was still going.
She was completely the boss of Cody.
When I went in to labor with Ella, she was by my side until we left for the hospital. When I got in the tub to soothe my contractions, she wouldn’t let anyone else in there.
She was there when we brought both of the girls home from the hospital, boy did they love her.
Ella talks about Cassidy quite frequently, tells us how she’s in heaven.
Cassidy was an amazing dog, the best. It still doesn’t feel normal that we’re back home, and she isn’t here with us.
Cassidy at our Wedding, 10/7/2006.
She LOVED the snow and loved going skiing with Brad.
With Ella when El was just a week old.
And a month old
A couple from Ella’s first Thanksgiving.
Aubrey has been obsessed with the dogs, pretty much since the day we brought her home.
Here are the girls playing “Dr.” with her this late winter/early spring. She was SO good with the girls!
We miss you Cass Girl!